one year.

It amazes me. The things that can change in a year. Your location. The people around you. Your attitude. 

A year ago I moved back home to live with my parents. This stemmed from a falling out that happened between my best friend and I, whom I was living with at the time.  This person had known me better than anyone for the prior 4 years. It was like a break-up and it was the worst one I’d ever experienced.

I arrived at home a different person. My spirit was broken. My heart was hurting. I had always expected to find my lifelong friends in college and to not be the person who had to move back in with their parents. Those were 2 things I thought I was sure of. I found myself to be mistaken.

And not only was I hurting, I was mean. And angry. I lashed out at the people supporting me.

It was an ugly time.

Now, a year later, I look back and see how far I’ve come. Am I entirely happy with the way my life is right now? No. But I’m making the best of it. And that’s the hardest part.
I finally have a sturdy base of people around me. Some old friends and some new.  But all loving and caring and supportive of me.

I feel lighter. Brighter. Like a shroud has been lifted. I can breathe deeply again.

It’s pretty amazing. The way things can change in a year. And without you really noticing it happen.

Daily Dose

There is a great blog that I read that over flows with love. If you know it, you can attest. It’s called The Daily Love and it’s like a love devotional. Today’s post was particularly inspiring. The last paragraph in particular, which read:

You are the co-creator of your life with the choices you make. Do you want to keep making the same mistake, or are you ready to graduate and experience BIG LOVE in your life? The choice is yours – make it consciously, and make it TODAY!
 
This idea is TOO TRUE! I’m telling people all the time that life is all about the choices you make. If you’re unhappy, choose to change things around. Choose to BE HAPPY. So many people these days are too willing to say “oh well, I guess that’s how my life is going to go” and they settle. They settle for crappy relationships and meaningless jobs and poor friendships. I feel like people are lazy about going after what they really want. Choosing happiness. Choosing love; It’s hard work! It’s a daily decision that you have to think about making. It won’t just happen on it’s own. 
 
If you’re not in charge of your life then who is?

girl put your records on…

a perfect day…

 I want a record player

There’s just something about listening to records that seems to vintage and lovely


 Growing up we had a huge old record player and my grandparents record collection…














…I would listen to all of them in one sitting; in love with the way they sounded and watching the needle work it’s way to the center.

can this PLEASE be me??

the good ol’ days

Records are so simple and pure.




From a time when life was simple and innocent…




…a time when boys courted girls and mothers wore pearls.

why shouldn’t this be me someday??

I think it’s time I look to make this happen.


I feel warm and happy just imagining it. 


And shouldn’t everyone strive to feel warm and happy?