How Are You?

I’ve come to despise this question. Does anyone really want to know how you are? Or do they say it out of habit in order to hear “I’m good” and move on with the conversation. I feel like if someone’s answer was “I’m terrible and hating my life” then the person asking wouldn’t know where to go from there. Lately I find myself spitting out an “I’m good” whenever I’m asked this question, but on the inside I’m screaming “I’M UNHAPPY, LONELY, AND MISERABLE!!! THIS ISN’T WHERE I WANT MY LIFE TO BE AND I DON’T SEE A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL”. But I don’t want to be the Debbie Downer and unload my issues on someone who is just trying to make conversation. Even if that someone is my best friend or mother. I figure, they have their own stuff to deal with so why should I bother them with mine too?  Is that wrong? I can’t decide if it is or not. On one hand I feel like I’m sparing them from my crap but on the other hand it only makes me feel more lonely. It’s a terrible cycle. I want to be happy but I can only force myself under these conditions for so long. I don’t want to have to force myself. I want to just BE happy. I want to enjoy what my life is instead of pretending to like it and just hope that it gets better. ugh 

the power of a word

Long story short, I was told last night, in reference to comparing Jezebel and I, “I’m not attracted to her. You on the other hand, I have a severe attraction to”.
Now just take a moment to let that soak in…severe attraction.
I didn’t put that word in his head or make him say it. But he did. And just reading it again now gives me goosebumps! AGAIN! I have never had  any guy say that to me before or even heard a guy say it to anyone! It does something to me. Now, I’m sure most of this has to do with the person it’s coming from, whom I will not disclose at this time, because he’s not the type to throw words around or lie for that matter. Plus we are separated by states at the moment so it’s not like he really has anything to gain by throwing such phrases into the universe.
But DAAAAAMMMMNNNN!!!!! I’m rarely speechless but this phrase has left me a stuttering mess. It’s such a far cry from the usual “oh baby you’re so hot” or “damn girl let’s bang”. It implies a deeper wanting.
All in all, boys of the world, step your game up because there are men out there who know just what to say!
And ladies, I hope you can all enjoy this combination of words someday. Indescribable.

Monday Music

Everyone needs a Monday Morning pick-me-up. I usually turn to music for this. Today it’s September by Earth Wind and Fire. How can anyone NOT love this song?? I can’t help but groove as soon as the intro starts. The words are almost impossible to comprehend but that never stops me from muttering along with how they sound. I love this song and I hope it can bring you a little happy as you go head-to-head with the Monday Madness!

so many projects!

It’s official! I’ve become someone who has anywhere between 5 and 10 projects going on at one time!! I’m not even sure how it happened! I was working on a Hat/Glove/Scarf Combo one minute and last night I found myself needing to get individual bags for the other 3 projects I had going on! This also explains my lack of posting or pictures. Apparently I’ve been starting things instead of finishing things! {tisk tisk}But last night was the last straw. I started a cross stitch for my mom, that I’m pretty excited about because I decided to change every thread color in the pattern. So last night I put my mental foot down! I will not start another project until I finish 1…or even 2 at this point! Luckily I’m pretty close to being finished with 1 project so I’m not totally bogged down.
On a more organized note, I had to do some major tidying last night. With all the knitting/crocheting supplies that I inherited came a huge mess. All the needles were in baggies and scattered here and there. Anything small was just floating around and I had a basket of old, rough yarn that filled my closet. Now, my house is currently on the market so keeping it clean is imperative in case someone wants to see it. With half of my knitting supplies buried in this basket in my closet and the other half in a box in our spare bedroom, finding anything I needed was quite the pain! Something had to be done. I bought some stack-able plastic containers went to work. At the end of the evening I had a large bag full of yarn to donate and all of my knitting supplies organized and in one place. Boy does it feel good. The basket went back into my closet but since I was able to make room for the stuff that used to be on top of it, I can actually get to it now. Even this morning when I woke up and glanced in my closet I immediately felt good about seeing just the basket in there. It’s amazing what a little organization can do for your soul! It’s as though I can breathe easier.
So, that’s all I have to report for now. As soon as I get something finished I’ll be sure to post about it! 🙂 I’m excited to get back into cross-stitching too. It’s been a while and I had forgotten how much I enjoy it.

Have a Happy Monday!!! 🙂

ain’t life funny

My full time job is being a nanny for a local family. While I’m here during the day I take care of the kids as well as do light housework like laundry and dishes. This whole week I’ve been a cleaning machine for some reason; doing at least 3 loads of laundry a day and cleaning the floors and doing 2 loads of dishes some times. Yesterday it all started to get to me. I got a little annoyed with the fact that every day I was having to do the same exact things because overnight all my hard work was erased. I talked to my mom and vented about it a little bit just to get it out of my system. Afterwards I wasn’t exactly at peace about it but I didn’t feel so frustrated.
Today, while I was cleaning up from lunch, I got a text from the mother of the kids saying “Hey Sarah thx for all your help with the house lately! we really really appreciate it!” I immediately thought of how ironic it was that just yesterday I was venting about it and then today the mom thanked me. All my hard work was worth it for that text alone. I couldn’t help but think about how funny life can be. How timing is everything. How when you’re in that moment of total frustration it’s so hard to look at the big picture and you never know what the next day will bring. And just because you don’t think people notice your actions and efforts, doesn’t mean they go unseen.

DON’T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF! It probably isn’t worth it!