okay is alright with me

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Since last April I’ve been technically single. Sure I’ve seen a few guys here and there but nothing substantial came out of it. For years, especially when I was a teenager, singledom was a terrible and lonely thing. I dreaded it. I dated the wrong guys and settled for less just so I didn’t have to be a single person. But this time has been different. I’m single and it’s okay. I’m okay. Sure sometimes I think it would be nice to have a significant person in my life, but I don’t feel desperate to find one. I don’t feel like I need someone.  I finally feel like being with someone does not define who I am or what I can do with my life. It’s my life. I can do as I please and see where my life goes. It’s empowering to feel good about it too. If I could rub some of my okay-ness on John Deere I would. It’s okay to be single. It’s not scary or terrible. It gives you the time to find things that you like to do, spend time with people who care about you, and nourish your relationship with yourself. While I’m sure that someday I’ll meet someone wonderful, it’s nice to not feel stressed or worried about it. It’ll happen when it happens and until then, I’m going to enjoy my time and do me!

[side note: okay is alright with me is a wonderful song by Eric Hutchinson. you should probably check it out!]

who cares?

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The other day I was talking with my mom about a friend of mine, whom we will refer to as Lambo. I’ve known Lambo for 11 years now so it’s been troubling me to see him be unhappy lately. He’s come out of a bad relationship and seems to be lost. He worries me. I don’t think he’s a danger to himself or anything but I just want him to find his happy and get back to his normal self. I have continued to worry and reach out to him and as I was telling my mom about it she stopped me and said “leave him alone”. I haven’t been pushy or anything but the point she is trying to make is that I can’t do anything for him. He needs to figure it out for himself, even if he makes a wrong choice along the way. I found myself arguing with her immediately. It was as if she was saying “Sarah, don’t care so much about Lambo or the decisions he makes”. Is really that what I need to do? Stop caring so much about him? Or stop showing him that I care? I have trouble with this. I feel like part of me just wants to show him that he isn’t alone, but I also hope that he already knows that.
Beyond Lambo, should this be an approach I take to my other friends too. If I worry about them, should I just start keeping it to myself? Now, none of my friends are suicidal or at serious harm; obviously if that were the case I wouldn’t be discussing it here and not with them. For example, my friend Rum Runner likes to drag race and do silly dangerous things. Obviously it’s nothing to lose sleep over but I still worry a little about him. At the end of the day, I don’t want to be that friend that’s like having a second mother around but I also don’t want to be absent from a friend in need. It’s a hard line to walk.
So, I guess for now I will leave Lambo be and if he needs to talk he knows how to get a hold of me. And Lambo, if you’re reading this, just know that I want what’s best for you and you deserve all the happiness in the world. And I adore you!

To: My Discoverer

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         Now, since I’m still figuring out what kind of girl I am, and because I don’t want to make it too easy for you, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what kind of girl I’m not. So here goes nothing:

I’m not the girl who refuses to dedicate Sunday afternoons, Monday nights, and the occasional Thursday evening to football.
I will not need to cry on your shoulder every time.
I’m not the girl who needs to wear makeup to go to the gym. Nor am I the girl who uses 5lb weights and never sweats.
I would never keep you from a guy’s night.  
I’m not afraid to get dirty.
I’m not the girl who needs to get wasted to have a good time.
I’m not a coffee drinker.
I won’t need to know where you are all the time. 
I’m not the girl who won’t eat a full meal in front of you (or anyone else for that matter)!
I’m not a liar. 
I’m not the girl who plays head games or will leave you guessing.
I’m not the girl who needs to be with you every second of every day…but I might want to. 

I’m not a cat person.
I’m not a country music fan.
I’m not the girl who will whine about being fat when I’m not.
I’m not meek or mild. 

Well, that’s what I’ve got for now. I don’t know if some of these will change by the time we meet but I guess we’ll have to wait and see.

Love Always,
Your Uncharted Territory

just sayin’

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Because my body decided to catch a cold yesterday(I had no say in the matter) I had nothing better to do but knit and watch movies. I caught the middle of “The Mask of Zorro” and decided to watch the rest of it.I had an observation after watching this part of the movie.

Obviously Catherine Zeta Jone and Antonio Banderas are sexy people but GOOD LORD! If this clip isn’t proof that they should have left their less attractive spouses and procreated then I don’t know what is. Enjoy!

this town

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I miss the sun on my face
Warm wind in my hair
Sand stuck to my feet
Not having a care
My life here is dry
It’s as cold as the night
I can’t seem to thrive
I can’t seem to fight
I feel my heart wanting
To just pack up and go
It’s calling me ever
So quietly so
To some other place
Full of culture and joy
A place to plants roots
Who knows? Meet a boy?
But I stay where I am
No I can’t up and flee
I just hope that this place
Won’t suck the life out of me

happy song

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I am a HUGE fan of music and the power it has to change a persons mood. Whenever I am down and need a pick-me-up I have a selection of songs that will immediately put me in a better mood and change my day. Below is one such song. I have been a fan of Rusted Root for a long time now but somehow this song never effected me like it did this past summer. While out adventuring with Green Goodness one night this song came on and spontaneous dancing commenced(as it usually does with she and I). We were unstoppable. If the song had never ended I’m sure we would have danced forever. 
If you’re having a blue Friday(which I’m not sure is possible), I hope you can enjoy this song as much as I do. Let it move you however it chooses.
And smile.

"Reading good books ruins you for enjoying bad books."

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That is from page 53 of the book I finished last night, “The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society” by Mary Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows. I know the title is lengthy but don’t let that deter you. I heard about this book from another blog I follow. I didn’t have a clue what it was about but I went to the library and brought it home, without ever reading a synopsis. In a little over 24 hours I had finished the book! I don’t think I’ve ever done that in my adult life.
The thing that made it so easy to read, for me at least, was that the whole book is written as a collection of letters to and from the characters. It made the flow of reading so effortless and enjoyable. It also inspires me to write letters! Why did we ever stop writing letters?? Curse you technology!!! okay, I fell better now.
The characters are so endearing and lovely. I became so invested in their lives, even though they are fictional. The non-fiction part of the book is the history and time-frame. This story is set in a post-WWII England and talks a lot about how the Nazi regime effected the Channel Islands. As factual as these parts are, the book still keeps an upbeat pace that won’t depress you.
I don’t want to spoil it for anyone so I suggest you read it! I could go on for hours but I will spare you all. If you do read it I would love to know what you think. I’m really quite open to others opinions and views.

Enjoy xoxo

being a reader

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For a few months now I have been wanting to get into reading. My sister was always the reader. She had a huge collection of books and at one point even wanted to be a librarian (thank goodness she came around and chose physical therapy for a career). I was always more hands on and go-out-and-do. Nowadays I’m still pretty hands on but I would like to read more. Not just blogs and magazines but actual hard books! Now, I don’t like the idea of resolutions because they usually end up being broken so instead I will call it a good old fashioned GOAL! My goal is to be someone who reads!
For Christmas I was gifted some money that I received before the holidays so naturally I used it to buy other gifts. My father and Grandfather enjoy books so I made my way to Walden books for gifts. While I was there, with Peace Sign actually, I decided that I would purchase a book for myself as well, to ignite my goal! I chose “Eat, Pray, Love” after hearing such great things about it (and no I have NOT seen the movie yet). As I was checking out the woman at the register said “did you know that all our books are buy 4 get 1 free?” At first this didn’t interest me but I had a quick shift in thinking. Why get one book for myself when I could get three?! So back into the stacks I went. I took me a while to really find things I knew I could commit to reading but I did.
I wasn’t able to start any until after the holidays so when I decided that it was time to begin my goal I chose the lighter of the books I bought.

Chelsea Handlers books are the best. I have adored her as a comedian and love her show on E! so when she started writing books I was all about it. I used my opportune moment at the bookstore to buy her third book that I hadn’t read yet. It was a great starter book to warm me up.
Unlike her first two books, “Chelsea Chelsea, Bang Bang” isn’t focused on her sexual escapades and mishaps. It’s more a collection of stories from her childhood up to the last year. A lot of which involve her now ex-boyfriend Ted, who is also the CEO at E!, and her quirky family. It’s as though you were sitting across the living listening to Chelsea tell the stories to you personally. There are even a few candid photos that certainly enhance the stories.
I know it’s not a Pulitzer Prize nominee but if you want an easy and very entertaining read I highly suggest this book. It will literally have you laughing out loud so try not to read it in a library or any other place that requires your silence. If you have read it, spread the word. If you haven’t read it, try and get your hands on it and let me know what you think. I don’t think you’ll be disappointed.

happy reading! xoxo